Dream ? ego ? pain ?

I woke up from my afternoon nap,

a rainy , suppose to be a great one...

But then i woke up ,

With rushing breaths,

i felt my chest ,

i felt hard to breath ,

I don't feel pain ,

i felt nothing ,

just rushing breaths ,

... is that dream real ?

I dreamed of failure,

continuously,

endlessly,

eternally ,

I felt afraid for a moment,

so tired, yet afraid.

right now such blankness,

too much ego ?

too much pain ?

I don't know,

I'm confused,

whats wrong with me ?

I cant even sleep well,

whats just wrong with me ?

my breathing gets harder ,

one day will it stop ?

may this body hold a little longer,

just longer for the clock .

can someone tell me whats wrong ?

is my pressure of failure killing me ?

I don't know ........

so tired, yet afraid to sleep ...

what am I afraid ?

Top Ten , jokes LOL!

I have surfed the net for a while .....and i found some hilarious stuff~
have a look ~ LOL ~!

TOP TEN THINGS THAT SOUND DIRTY IN GOLF BUT AREN'T

10. Nuts...my shaft is bent.

9. After 18 holes I can barely walk.

8. You really whacked the hell out of that sucker.

7. Look at the size of his putter.

6. Keep your head down and spread your legs a bit more.

5. Mind if I join your threesome?

4. Stand with your back turned and drop it.

3. My hands are so sweaty I can't get a good grip.

2. Nice stroke, but your follow through has a lot to be desired.

1. Hold up...I need to wash my balls first.

TOP TEN REASONS WHY TRICK OR TREATING IS BETTER THAN SEX.....

10. You are guaranteed to get at least a little something in the sack.

9. If you get tired, you can wait 10 minutes and go at it again.

8. The uglier you look, the easier it is to get some.

7. You don't have to compliment the person who gives you so me.

6. It's O.K. when the person you're with fantasizes you're someone else, because you are.

5. Forty years from now you'll still enjoy candy.

4. If you don't like what you get, you can always go next door.

3. It doesn't matter if the kids hear you moaning and groaning.

2. Less guilt the morning after.

1. You can do the whole neighborhood.

Top Ten Reasons Studying is Better Than Sex...

10. You can usually find someone to do it with.

9. If you get tired, you can stop, save your place and pick up where you left off.

8. You can finish early with-out feelings of guilt or shame.

7. When you open a book, you don't have to worry about who else has opened it.

6. A little coffee and you can do it all night.

5. If you don't finish a chapter you won't gain a reputation as a "book teaser."

4. You can do it, eat and watch TV all at the same time.

3. You don't get embarrassed if your parents interrupt you in the middle.

2. You don't have to put your beer down to do it.

1. If you aren't sure what you're doing, you can always ask your roommate for help!

Top Ten Things That Sound Dirty In Law But Aren't

10. Have you looked through her briefs?

9. He's one hard judge!

8. Counselor, let's do it in chambers.

7. His attorney withdrew at the last minute.

6. Is it a penal offense?

5. Better leave the handcuffs on.

4. For $200 an hour, she better be good!

3. Can you get him to drop his suit?

2. The judge gave her the stiffest one he could.

1. Think you can get me off?

Spagetti.

After coming back from my home town for almost 2 weeks,
Im really almost in the mood for the new sem and years ahead,
but there is just something i cant forget,

the spaghetti that i was taught from my mother.
the spaghetti that I used to make every time when my mom isn't around.
using beef shreds and onion slices to create that wonderful flavor....
Adding the "Angel hair" style noodles in to the boiling waters with a few pinches of salt....
and good mushrooms and canned prego ....

Its just amazing that a few simple things can make someone happy for a moment.
Its just delightful when u taste it,
a sense of satisfaction....
Its simple,
and great.

food doesn't have to be flashy looking,
but it has to be "made" with heart...

and that's cooking.

what counts is the taste.
not the outlook.

ahh....Im starting to get hungry again.....
isnt there any food from home ?

Boredom.

ARGH.
so bored.
everybody so far away now,
new classmates havent fully recognized.
and the wheather...hot as ever ...

No inspiration.
No Work ( thats a miracle actually )
but got crazy week stuff to do...

well ~
at least there are some new challenges this year,
wont be expecting relaxation for a while again ~
but to think about it,
my japan trip will be coming soon ,
hope That i can get enough cash to get my stuff~
and the things for the souveniers~

My Holiday so far has ended and new opening

After all the parties at my place,
Most of the guys had to go back and they didn't have time anymore,
but then there were still some things going on in jb,
wan tings bday was here , and there we go !
still going out to party!

a really wonderful time there!
and lots of pictures taken ,
will upload on face book soon .
lazy to post here,
uploading keep failing.
be patient!on face book ~ ( due to net lagging and problems , lots of slow updates )

well its really been some time that ive updated here ( thanks to u, stupid net )
well in a new year now ~ and its year 2 BA(HONS) IAD....
so many people this year , i was expecting 60 plus,
but quite unfortunately, 92 ?!
so many people, how to know all of them ?!
i was hoping for one big class, but it seems that we have seperated from each other,
fen , ding, jacky, and carmen, all different group jor,
damn sien ,
want to eat lunch with them also so difficult,
then have to meet new friends, ( although it isn't so bad )

so far until now things are going smoothly, but horribly busy again ,
but the good thing is my japan trip would be coming soon, and im trying to save
as much money as i can for the trip ~
( to buy tons of souvenirs )

this year,
will be serious,
i will do 200 percent of what i have before.
i want to be strong,
my ambition.
so slack while i can ,
for now.

My Holiday So far so good (part 2)

After the First day off Wii-ing and Swimming,

We started off with delicious breakfast ~
( actually it was lunch because we woke up around 3 pm )~



pancakes and coffee or tea~~
yum yum ~~~
my mom is good at this ~
and all of them liked it....
but the amount......
MOM STOP PLS~!!!
i already eat ten pieces~!!!!



My house coffee machine~

after the "breakfast"
we did a bit of a morning excercise....
WII~!!!! again ~!!!
played bowling on wii!~~~
OMG I love bowling alot~
hahah~
and we did played some weird games too haha
played until quite a few hours again ~~



ME GOING CRAZY AGAIN~



friends playing the wii~



resting from the wii~



Li ping resting from the wii game~ damn tired~
( quite a nice picture )

After some of that gaming we where pretty hungry already,
but that day Barbie's had some offering party going at her place tonight,
and we where all invited to the party to eat ~
so we all had to "starve" abit, but then my mom so bad ~
teach them how to cook while they "tahan"~
hahahaha~~



My mom ~ the best cook ~



Celine learning from my mom ~ lol~
after cooking and all that free lesson for my friends~
we went to barbie's house to party ~
OMG ~~ so many food~~~



and my mom even came !

damn crowded lol ~
and alot of people enjoying the marvelous feast!~
and had a great takng picture party there~~~






A nice party ~



weird photos~



Barbie's father and us ~

after the good food and party again ,
my mom brought us to some really luxurious dinning place.

its called Le'Chateau~ in Italian~
then there was this grand piano there...
finger itchy~~~
so wat if there is no musician ?!
I will be the musician ~ HOO~



all my friends also where all there taking picture~
damn lots and lots of pcture la,
just like i said,
after i compile all of it,
i will post it all on face book,
so just enjoy the pictures i post for now ~



a quiet pub ~



getting steamy there~ WOO~



outside the Le"Chateau~



....



me being punished for not attending the birthday...



and then the guy was punished back lol~!



ORG_JKIV_FOREVER.

well after that half of the members had to go home,
but the rest of us continued at barbie's places again.
this time we were count downing merdeka ~



just look at the amount of food and drinks..~
V.S.O.P also got.
lol!
and the cheers!!!



thats barbie's mom, a yong tau fu seller,
she sells good stuff !
I mean real good food!



and so we went back to my place after the drinks and talks,
they even tried to make drunk,
so that they could ask some "questions"
lol~ but lucky i just drink abit~
i was just half drunk ~!
and had a good nights rest after that..

Holiday so far so good (2) - end.

My Holiday So far so good (Part 1)

This is the third time typing my blog...

URGH i accidentally delete 2 times zzz,
so Im going to be short a bit and straight forward~
and gonna to separate into parts~

Its been almost 2 weeks since i came back from Kl,

and so far the party has been going on for days~
the JKIV guys were just present....
as the rest will come tomorrow....
and some of the JKIV ladies came to my house.....
and they all came back to the very place where JKIV organized...



A.K.A sky palace, Straits View Condominium.


ITS TIME TO PLAY WII!!~~PARTY GUYS ~!!!



deciding on what to play ?



PLAYTIME~~~


erjie and nemo taking photo with the mac book pro....

well they all enjoyed all the weird games,
and erjie kept screaming all the way lol~!
banana~ banana ~ ( the game has got something to do with that )



then after some wii playing,
we decided to go to pool side.
to have some fun and wet!!
we haven't swam together in years ~
omg ~~~ i love swimming ~~



Wide space and nice scenery~



James Bond ?!



Having fun~



Pool side pictures~ shell... ur hand...




and me and shell did a very disgusting movie...

after all the poolside fun,
and then you bath I bath..
cleaning up and all of that...
we were all very hungry and we went to MCD to eat dinner ~



Not much had happened for the first day after that ,
as all of us where exhausted from all the action at the pool.
because we were saving all the strength for tomorow,
so they stayed at my place as usual,
and waited for the rest of the members to arrive the next day...

Part 1 END
Note that there are alot of pictures taken and I am lazy to upload it...
I will upload it soon on facebook when Ive completed taking all the photos.



An ornament in my house,
the Buddha looks at you no matter where u go.
quite interesting.

A Parting Night

Moonlight Shining down the pavement,
As Silenced crossed our sides,
Waiting for that cab show up,
As my time slowly goes by.

In front of your house we were,
Sending me off before I go,
Tying up that silky hair of yours
Feeling the night’s breeze that flows.

My last night with you,
Was painful yet pleased,
Seeing your eyes the last time,
Before I leave.

I can’t help but stare at you,
While the parting moment ticks.
Seeing your gorgeous eyes,
While touching your lovely cheeks.

Don’t worry we’ll see each other,
That’s what I told myself.
But then until how much longer,
Can I have you myself?

Finally the car arrives,
And it was time to go.
That I had to leave you,
And return my home.

But I couldn’t say those words,
That you mean too much too me.
Staring at your gentle eyes,
Wanting to say my love badly.

I turned around,
and sat in the ride,
I waved my goodbyes,
And you faded before my eyes.

Wait for me to return .
I swear.
Although no promises made for you.
I’d be there…

This is about a boy saying his farewells to a girl, and he will never see her again...

Finally Finished it...

27-8-2009

2 days 1 night in Genting and Kepong.

Finally after the dreadful battle in year one,

me, fen fen, carmen, anson, ding ding and jacky,
went to Genting to have some fun !
We first gathered at One U,
then got our tickets later.....
and ONLY my seat was the worst,
as i got seperated from my friends zzz....
and the old man beside me had smells of egg+perfume+old man smell+ a bit of medicine....
and I had to ride on it for about an hour before we could get on the cable cars...
I had to make my face "left" the entire trip due to that horrible smell...
which makes me remind me of the song..."to the left~ tothe left~".....loled.
But soom after we got there by the cable car, then started unpacking and all of that in our rooms...



and After Saying goodbyes to our Year one by giving it a "universal language"...


SHOWTIME!! AT GENTING!!!



if u ask me y that pose...
Its because its the perfect pose for "attention" lol!
HARDO HOO!!!! POSE!!!! ( XD)



Some Weird ride in genting....go in blow air, thats all....



Finally FREE~~~



Crazy ~!

You Guys can refer to other pictures on my facebook,
Pictures can say alot of words...
as there are too many to upload.

we had a good time at genting,
but to bad that the other guys had "stocmach ache"
and ding ding had her "periods"...
so its just left me and carmen,
going to the arcades to have some fun that night,
and after a few rounds of basketballing and ball bonanza-ing...
we won ourselves a keychain, and 2 leg hair swipers ( those things u use to sweep ur laptop ) ....

A last photo of us in Ripleys.

There was nothing much on the second day,
as the entire day was our trip back and some resting.
at least the ride back was MUCH better than the ride i came on...
NO SMELL! lol~!

We Came back on Saurday,

and took some rest on Sunday,

Fen fen Threw her CD for me to BURN = =.

and went home to sleep ~~~

I had to wait for my mom to pick me up,

as she insisted on it lol,

or else i would have gone back too.

but either way,

I went to a friends house instead,

to spend another 2 day one night in kepong, lol.

After I handed in our Cd's ( including fen fen and ding ding ) and all of that.

I went to her house, to kill some time.( since I had to wait for my mom, y not ?)

Seeing her mother, its just ....just like seeing my own...

She just keeps FEEDING ME...

I had a wonderful Bak Kut Teh dinner,

and then later went to the pasar malam near her place.

Its been like almost years since i went to places like that,

an it sure does bring back some of those leisuremall bowling,

gaming and eating memories back in high school.

I just ate and walked all the way,

minding my own business

while my friend was trying to find herself a bag...

and she couldnt find a suitable bag for herself,

And so I told her the reason why guys must never buy bags for girls.

"Even if you miraculously get the right color of the bag, it will definately be the wrong size, the wrong shape, the wrong amount of pockets and even the wrong season."

XD

Well after that was a peaceful night,

her brother keep askin me for the psp though, lol.

and i was cleaning my laptop's rubbish (fen fen, ding ding, anson, carmen, all ur project stuff where in there...)

and I did it until quite late, and I still havent finished cleaning it.

well never mind,

I've got a month to do so.

The next day morning,

I woke up,

and I prepared to go to the early market with her mom.

Its been ages since I made myself to wake up,

just to go into a morning market.

Well we all know that night and morning markets are just street markets,

but to me,

Even I have no intention to buy anything particular,

Seeing these markets in their new "stocks" and just looking around can make me

happy already.As the saying goes...

"you dont need a reason to like something."

after a VERY VERY FULL BREAKFAST....( her mom again )

I helped her and her mom to wash "cars"

well she is a bit "yim jim".( maybe alot )

and we washed just her car for 3 hours,

lucky we had some extra hands on the second one,

her boyfriend came and helped too.

After washing.

her mom again.

cooked "gai Giok"

which means chicken legs....

and I had to eat them....

although still extremely full from breakfast,

eat a bit la.

her chicken legs were damn good sia.

but my stocmach was damn full lol.

I later then helped to watch the stall abit,

as her mom and brother made fun out of me,( seems like im some joke )

because of my "alien tounge"

I couldnt speak canto well,

so her mom taught me some of it,

well in the end I STILL LEARND abit

although they laughed "COUNTLESS" times on my pronounciation.

loled.

Around 5 o'clock.

She brought me to some jungle or hutan whatever that was,

and I was amazed.

that KL at places like these.

the Scenery was beautiful.

the wind was blowing on my face,

fresh air in KL ,

I never had dreamed of that.

the clouds were pretty ,

the skies where just pure blue.

I walked around this "jungle"

and I really really enjoyed it.

Its just like facing a release from a long journey,

a walk in the woods.

just calms me completely....

while we reached the pond area.

there were many tortises and fishes..

and the atmoshpere was extremly peaceful....

i was looking at the pond,

while the winds blowing at my face.

I was listening to my songs on the phone ,

while enjoying the scenery at stake.

I feel so peaced for a sudden,

everthing was like forgotten...

and I finally had felt "peace"

after such a long and tiring year one....

we soon walked back after that,

and I had to get read to come back to the dreadful hostel.

her mom again.

stuffed me with good food.

and i was too full to continue....

I was so happy,

Im eating home food finally again after months ...

and after that i had to go back.

Well that damn taxi ignored my calls,

and her mom sent me to the main road and accompanied me waiting for one...

well ...

and after thanking her mom and her for the stay,

here and now im back at the hostel

waiting for my mom to pick me up on 27...

Her mother is a great person.

She even gave me cough meds for my throat.

She asked me if i was hungry almost every hour...( even though I was full almost every minute)

Although i have no blood relation to her,

she treats me like some son of her own,

geez....

thanks aunty!!

Its hard to find people like that,

like my mom,

haha~

so im so happy ,

to see a second version.

...

what else can I say ?

Im touched.

But.

Happy Holidays.

to you and your mom and your family.

Damn.

my vision is a bit blurry.