Dream ? ego ? pain ?

I woke up from my afternoon nap,

a rainy , suppose to be a great one...

But then i woke up ,

With rushing breaths,

i felt my chest ,

i felt hard to breath ,

I don't feel pain ,

i felt nothing ,

just rushing breaths ,

... is that dream real ?

I dreamed of failure,

continuously,

endlessly,

eternally ,

I felt afraid for a moment,

so tired, yet afraid.

right now such blankness,

too much ego ?

too much pain ?

I don't know,

I'm confused,

whats wrong with me ?

I cant even sleep well,

whats just wrong with me ?

my breathing gets harder ,

one day will it stop ?

may this body hold a little longer,

just longer for the clock .

can someone tell me whats wrong ?

is my pressure of failure killing me ?

I don't know ........

so tired, yet afraid to sleep ...

what am I afraid ?